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Hello everyone. Yes, I'm still alive!

I guess first of all, I owe you all an apology for my absence. I usually think of myself as a normal guy ho just happens to have a Deviant ART account, so once in a while I upload something I feel like. But as the months come by, I noticed a lot of people have bee checking my work and followed me in hopes for more, as well as people requesting permission to post some of my pieces in their groups. I dare to say I have grown fans who like my work and wait patiently for some more. Some have been here from the very beginning, and some are so new that haven't even noticed I have been away for quite some time now, like 6 months to be more precise.

Now, the reason for this is because of two things: College and laziness. The most powerful, college, is the main reason. Many know, many don't, but I study Architecture. I love it with all my heart, and if you know something about this career, it literally sucks your personal life. I have come to realize that unlike my normal job at the chocolate store, an architect (not yet, but in general) doesn't get the chance to clock in and clock out... you never do. It's a 24/7 job, you always think, breath, feel architecture every single time, even you dream architecture (not even kidding, I have been so deep in projects, some of them even appear in my dreams). Back to the point, I don't have it easy in my college education. Most people get financial aid and stuff like that. In my case, I have to pay for my own education, so my job and school combined, never leave me any spare time for myself. I haven't played video games in months until I finally started my summer time. I've been stressing with projects barely finishing at the last second, some of them not even finished at all (I'm an over achiever, so I usually do more than I have to, but it costs me). So, I sort of abandoned my work at Deviant ART because of that. I see my education as the most important thing for me right now, and even though I was dying to update something in here, I couldn't let my architectural work alone for 5 minutes, I didn't have the privilege of even 5 minutes. But, we all do what we can to improve ourselves.

For some reason, my icons have been quite the success among many people. To be sincere, when I designed the very first Windows 7 folder, it was just because I didn't have anything to do, and that was a time killer back in the summer when I had just started using photoshop. But people kept requesting more colors, so I answered. Now, well, all the icons I have done, is really just for the people who have been supporting me. But, why haven't I continued?... why haven't I finished the rest of the colors and the last video folder?. Well, laziness... well, more than laziness, is lack of inspiration. I have been around Deviant ART and the web for so long, I have seen some fantastic works beyond my understanding of creation. They seem to be generated from 3D softwares and rendering softwares of high knowledge requirement. When I see those fantastic icons, and I see mine, I feel like mine are nothing and worthless. So, why should I try to design some crappy looking icons when there are people who really specialize in doing so?... That's part reason why even though I have had some time now because of the summer, I haven't uploaded anything so far.

But finally, today something came up. I was at work, and decided to continue with this commissioned tattoo from a friend that I haven't given work in months. As some of you know, I have an HP Touchsmart Tablet/Laptop (bought it with the intention of doing more photoshoping). I bough a laptop stand, that tilts my tablet in many heights, and purchased a cheap USB Mac-style keyboard to have available as my keyboard is covered in tablet mode (design flaw?)... for some reason, today was the very first time when I combined all of these items together, and they worked with photoshop so beautifully! I was able to increase the accuracy and the speed of the pen tool with my pen on the tablet and the control key available on my other hand. I have finished such tattoo just today, and I feel now I feel like I can do much more.

So, to sum things up, I am resurrected, and I will try little by little creating more things, so I can keep learning from my mistakes and create what I want to create. I attempt to start learning how to properly use brushes in the program to start doing digital paintings. They will suck ass, but it's a start!...

Plus... I have to make an announcement. Money is really always tight with me, therefore, I will offer my services to whoever asks for them (no, no prostitution you perverts, although I look good *wink* ... haha). I will accept commissions to design mainly tattoos, or logos, or things like that. I have done such all my life, and I think it's time I take this small talent to help e out a little bit. So, if you or you know somebody who is looking for some cool tattoo design or something related to photoshop, maybe we can work something out :)

Well, for now, I'll upload my ending results for today's work on the horse tattoo, and I'll try to have the rest of the colors of the already finished icons uploaded by the end of this week, and the last video icon in the next two weeks.

Hope you can bare with me, but I'll do my best to make my page what it once was. A normal page with some followers :P

Thank y'all!
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Well, this is my first journal of 2011.
Sorry I haven't done anything. Many things happened the last months of 2010.

Ok, so here's what happened:

My family and I were having some immigration problems that had to be solved back in Mexico. So, we had to leave back to our home country and resolve them. We thought that it was gonna take less than a week, so nobody would even notice our absence, but it turned out to be otherwise, so we ended up stuck in Mexico for three weeks while our paper work was being processed. A little piece pf advice, never goo to Mexico to do international paperwork in November; freaking US Embassy takes both Mexican and American holidays off, and November if full of them!
So, being away from work and school for three weeks does have it's negative side, and a big one. In work, well, that means three weeks of no money whatsoever (money I could had used for more Christmas presents for my family, or things I actually need). Luckily, the people at my job are quite understanding and were happy I was able to come back.
Now, school, well, a whole different story. I missed the work of three weeks, and in architecture, you have no idea how much that is. You might think, sure, three weeks is like some essays, or some test remakes. In architecture, is missing making models and drawing, and these take at least a week each to finish. So, I missed in general a total of three projects, and the model I was working on before leaving wasn't even finished yet. So, when I came back, I had an incredible amount of work that was basically impossible to achieve by the semester's end by my own. My teacher realized this (and this is the reason why he's so awesome), so he decided that I should move up to the current project (some object analysis drawings), and the rest of the missed work should be done during the winter break to be reviewed right before the next semester starts this January. That gave me a lot of more time to work on them, but that doesn't mean they aren't time consuming, so I'm working on them right now. Not much of a winter break, I still feel that I'm in school, but well, we sacrifice many things for our dreams.

Anyway, in the other side of my life, the social one, it's been a really good year for me. We resolved our issues and my dad got a better job so he can help me pay for college. Although I was a little short in money, I did manage to buy nice presents for my parents and my brothers, and a little something for me! An HP TOUCHSMART! :D
Yup, a laptop/tablet, so I can work better in my art (besides, the touch capabilities are incredibly fun!)... I have some issues though. Ever since I got it, my Photoshop work efficiency has decreased, mainly because it's a whole new way to interact with the program, so I got to get used to it. And, the pen pressure it's really col, but I just realized that is gonna take some time to get used to it. I'm thinking that I'm gonna have to learn how to use Adobe Illustrator; I've seen thht the brush strokes automatically smooth quite nicely in this program, and that's pretty much what I'm looking for, so yeah...

Now, about Deviant ART. I know I haven't done s**t in months, but, I'm gonna try to have the rest of the System folders already designed uploaded in all their colors, and then try to come up with the last one of them (the videos one, it's gonna take some time :S)

After that, I'll try to come up with the User inside icons (you know, the contacts, downloads, links and stuff). These are gonna have the style of the Windows 7 Default Folders that I made, so they would blend in with the established style.
I got to be honest, all my work will take a lot of time, not because I'm slow, but because my college work always comes first and this is time consuming. I'm lucky to get 6 hours of sleep in one night in a busy week to be sincere, all the other nights it's around 3 hours of sleep, or none at all! (all-nighters, totally make you loose notion of time @_@ )

Well, I just wanted to update what's going on right now. I think I'm gonna try to upload some of my architectural work so you all can see what I've done so far.
Thank you so much for all your support, and I wish the best for everyone this New Year 2011. It's a new beginning filled with opportunities, so rush out there and kill for those opportunities!... before 2012 arrives to doom us all! hahahaha
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Hello everybody...

You probably noticed that I have been uploading some stuff lately for Deviant ART. Well, reason for this is that I had some free time now.

Some months ago, I told you that I had to do some paper work, and some struggles that were happening and stuff. Well, main point here is that all this paper work was finally resolved today. I had to make a trip to Mexico, back to my hometown. I've been here for a little bit more than a week now, and since I couldn't bring any school work with me, I found myself with a lot of free time.

Yeah, I'm really happy right now, because my problem was resolved, and now I can come back to Houston, TX with no problems whatsoever and have a better life now. My dad got this new job as a teacher, which means he'll get paid more and eventually will be able to help me to pay for school.

While here in Mexico, I got the chance to renovate my passport, and get my Mexican driver's License, and also this Mexican ID necessary for voting, but democracy in Mexico works worse than in the US, so it's doesn't matter much, just for having a good ID for Mexico.
And believe me, nothing tastes as good as the real thing!... Mexican food never looses its charm when done in its origin place. Enchiladas at night, grilled hamburgers, Mexican chips, apple soda... it's all so good and never present in the US ;_;
I got to eat it again after two years :')

Now, I've been a week in here already, and I do love seeing my family again (even though I just realized they are more annoying than I already knew), and seeing my old town, with all those good past memories, I WANT TO FUCKING LEAVE ALREADY!
What bothers me is that I have school going on back in Houston, and I already missed two assignments!
Also, I've been missing work at the chocolate store. Ever since I started working, I have never got a vacation. Not that we get one, but we can ask for a week or two off for certain time, and after a year working, it's the first time I asked for time off. Still, I want to go back, because I've been expending some money here in Mexico and feel that nothing is backing it up, since I'm not working and earning nothing.
I talked to my manager, and she says is fine. But I can't help it but feel that I have to start working again.

Now, again for school... I've missed like 6 classes already. My teacher just told me to contact him as soon as I get back to see what could we do. Makes me a little uneasy, knowing that everyone else got to turn in their projects and their drawings for this model we did, except for me! ;_;

If it was vacations or some free time, I could just relax in here... go camping, to the beach, visit some old friends, but I can't! because I was working on this paper work and I know I have stuff to do back home.

So, yeah... I visited my old house. Full of dust! My house is being "taken cared of" by an aunt, but I do think it would be better if it was by it's own really. My aunt... I don't know, she's extremely weird. She's so disorganized and careless, she doesn't know what to do most of the times. As for my house, it's an entire mess!! Everything's extremely dusty and dirty, and our things are hidden in a huge pile of stuff... my family and I went there to get some old stuff, like clothes and the like. I found my old Onyx Chess, a chess set my father gave to me I think in my 14th birthday. Still looks awesome!... there are many pictures in there, from my childhood, my old house in Chiapas, my family, those family member who are gone now, like my grandparents. My brothers and I found this old picture of us with them. I just noticed that my grandpa was really tall! We definitely got our height genes from him :)
We also found some wedding pictures of our parents... my dad was really skinny back then! He looked a lot like my little brother Pedro :D

Well, I just want to come back to Houston and continue my Architectural work. Oh, and speaking of architecture, we also found some old plans of our house. Now, this house wasn't quite finished when we left, so many things were undone and still are to be built. And some other things, are just so wrongly designed. i took the plans with me, and took pictures of them. Now, with my new abilities, I'm gonna re-create our house in Google Sketchup and make many modifications to it. Once I'm done with it, our house shall be the envy of the entire town, mwahahahaha! XD

Well, now, I'm just waiting for something important to arrive in the mail, and from there, I'll be able to finally come back to Houston, to my new home now. I miss all my friends so much.
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Hey everyone.. I've been gone for a while, haven't I...
I'll go straight to the point of this journal:

College started already, and I have been here for a month and a half already. Architecture is quite challenging, but as well amazing. I have learned so much already; for example, I can see now connections in the building designs, to spot the purpose why certain things were done certain way. My studio is filled with 17 students including myself. We all get a desk and a locker to be shared by two. I have made many good friends already.
But this program is one of the hardest in every university. Architecture requires an incredible amount of time, which turns out to be your personal time, and even other kind of times you might have (like my job for me). For the same, that's one of the main reasons why I haven't done anything for deviant art... my life has been sucked away into a black hole! ;_; ... I mean, I love Architecture, but it takes a lot of time...

See it this way: I wake up every morning, after a long night of work for my studio, around 8:30 am, to take a shower and prepare my things for the day. I leave my apartment around 9:15 am to arrive at my job to open at 10:00 am. I stay there either til' 2 or 3 pm depending on the day, and immediately leave for college. I arrive at the Architecture building either 2:30 or 3:30 pm, and take my Introduction to Architecture and/or Design Studio. My studio finished til' 6:00 pm, but I always stay in there til' 9:00 pm, to work on my stuff I have to turn in for the next day. I leave to my apartment arriving around 9:30 pm to 10:00 pm. Then, I have dinner (whatever I can find to eat), rest a little, and keep working late for what I have to do (the longest I have stayed up was 5:00 am, still haven't done an all-nighter yet). So, yeah, I barely sleep around 5-6 hours daily, if not 3 because of extremely late nights, and all this to be repeated 4 days a week. Then Friday, Saturday and Sunday, I keep working to whatever I have to turn in, and then go to work to whatever schedule and place they assign me at the chocolate store. And this repeats every week. I have never had a schedule this hard, but I have to make it work.

I like my studio a lot, but I really think it would be better if I take my core classes during the winter or the summer, since even taking it online, i'm doing really bad in my pre-calculus class. Which reminds me, I have to study everything, so I can become a calculus genius for my test this Friday.

I think I'll upload pictures of my work, so maybe you can see how I develop my idea in my studio. Like today, I had to leave my studio early because my assigned group and I had to go visit this place in Houston, called the Gerald D. Hines Waterwall. We are suppose to talk about this place, about what it represents and what it makes us feel; things that we feel are important to point out about; and today was the only day we were able since we have to turn in ideas for tomorrow!

So yeah, really hard, but even though is killing me from the inside, and I'm sick (stupid flu), I like it :)
Have you ever got that feeling when you do something so good, that you get the admiration of your peers and people in general? and you feel like your job was well done, that you were meant to do it. Well, I feel like this many times while making my projects. I have become so good at craftsmanship and my ideas are well recognized. This situation simply encourages me to keep trying and make things even better, because I know I'm doing it right. It's funny, some friends in my studio always claim that certain projects can never be perfect, and sometimes add that except for mines (hehe). Or, yesterday, a classmate was telling me how a technique I applied to a model helped him a lot (has to do with cutting and pasting edges with cart board as a material, hard to explain). He told me that it made his productivity faster, and easier... and he called it the "Corzo Method" XD   (Corzo is my last name, ever since I started my studio, I told my professor to call me by my last name to make it easier to remember me, and a lot of people know me as Corzo right now... funny thing, I was thinking this today, that when people call me Corzo, I feel that they respect me, and when they call me by my name, Juan, I feel that they see me as a friend... I can go both ways :) )

So yeah... ever since I started, there are many things that I learned in the past that have become extremely in handy. Like the use of the exacto knife, that I learned during my year in AutoCAD, or the proper use of the triangles. A friend of mine, he had been cutting his stuff while using a triangle, and when I took a lot at it, the edge of the triangle was all messed up because of it. I remember well how my AutoCAD teacher told me exactly that, that to cut, you have to use a metal ruler or the like, since the plastic of the triangles and the scales gets ruined if you cut with them. Also, my friend who sits beside me, she didn't even know how to use the exacto knife at all, she had been cutting her crafts with scissors from the beginning. I taught her how to properly cut, just like I was once taught. My AutoCAD was amazing, and I'm so grateful I took it... my only regret is not had taken it years before my graduation. I'm sure many of the skills I acquired from it will make my life simpler in college.

Also, there are two main groups in the College of Architecture. One is a fraternity called APX (Alpha Ro Chi). They have members all around the world, and such a strong brotherhood. The other, is the AIAS (American Institute of Architect Students) from the AIA (American Institute of Architects), an incredibly big group of architects. I couldn't design to what group join, since they both seem to have many benefits, so I decided to join both at first. Sadly, because of terms of money and time, I decided to not join APX. I joined AIAS instead (which reminds me, I still have to make the member fee payment :S )... I'll see what I can do next year. For now, AIAS seems like fun! :D   The second meeting, they asked for people to make shirt designs for the group shirt. I did my best I could while in my normal projects, and came up with a cool design (well I like it)... I presented it to the next meeting, and the people voted for their favorite ones. I was the first of the top 3 designs, with 23 votes against 14 and 13 of the other two. So, last night I got an email from the group, telling me that they decided for the first time to print the 3 designs instead of just one. They didn't elect mine for the group, but instead, will use mine for a greater audience. They will use my design for the College of Architecture shirt, so all the people in the College can acquire one (I hope I get one for free, I mean, I designed it, didn't I!? haha)

So yeah, right now, I'm working on re-do's... projects that got a middle or low grade, remake them with the necessary corrections, and turn them in for re-grading. Not that I got any bad one (well, actually like 1 or 2), but those middle grades I want to turn them into better ones when I have the chance. Besides, after all this work, the past work becomes incredibly easier. Like, back then, cutting black squares and rectangles was a little complicated, but now that we have been cutting chipboard, foam board and cart board, cutting a piece of black paper with accuracy is nothing! hehe...

I have to decorate the candy store for Halloween. I plan to make it better than last year. Last year, we only focused on one part of the store to hold all the Halloween merchandise, and all the decorations were mainly there. This year, I plan to break those boundaries, and spread all the decorations all around. Cover all the shelfs with black and orange mantels, as well as spider webs there and there. That way, all the products we have can be considered for Halloween use instead of just the seasonal ones (I mean, pecan crisp for a Halloween party must be a win!)... So, I want to finish decorating tomorrow, or Friday. Oh and also!... the store was robbed!!!
Somebody broke the glass door two days ago, and took all the money from the cash registers. Not chocolate or candy, just the cash. $800 dollars lost, plus $200 bucks for the glass door replacement. So, a $1000 lost. This can easily be covered by the Christmas selling, but still!

So, well, that's all I can think of right now, and I think I have done the biggest journal so far in my Deviant ART account. About the icons I used to upload, I'll try to make the rest of the colors for the already existing icons, and upload them as soon as I see a little free time. The remaining ones and the commissions... well, you are gonna have to wait til' I get time to work on them...

Well thank you whoever reads this random journal...
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Tough Times...

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Hey guys... I'm running through some issues at the moment, with some paperwork that has to be taken care of, and a bunch of stuff that might happen if this thing is not resolved. So, a lot of things are going through my mind lately.
To make it more sincere, I even might have to find a place to stay and live by my own, which is kind of scary as I have never done it before. Always wanted to get out of my parents house, but it's a lot scarier than I thought it would be. So, got to look at all my options before I make a decision.
Excuse my absence of art submitted to Deviant ART, but I really have to take care of this.
I'm sorry, but I'll try to come with something new next time I upload something.

Thank you...
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